Wow, Life sure has its way of coming around to bite people in the A$$..... I mean hell someone I used to date years ago is in the middle of getting divorced! Has 2 kids that are his and a 1 that he has addopted.. Many many moons ago this person hurt me deeply. (Screwed my best friend, screwed his best friend and dated someone behind my back)
Well anyway, for years I wondered what I had done so wrong to make him do this to me?!? Well as I got older and the pain slowly went away I realized that it wasn't me that had done something wrong it was him who I realized didn't know what he wanted out of life and wanted to please his parental units. Well since his dad couldn't stand me, I think his mom liked me but it was his dad I think he didn't want to disapoint..
Well we remained friends for the last 15 years of life and only saw each other from time to time, which was probably a good thing seeing that I dont want any of those feelings that I had to come back.... You know the ones im talking about... weak at the knees, feel like you have a swarm of butterflies in your stomach and seem to stumble over your own words feel like nothing in life will ever make you feel the same way again. Where you can look into their eyes and see into their soul/heart and someone you can tell your fears too or your life thoughts. That first love of your life that you never want to let go of..Well I let go and moved on in life and found a new love of my life and have 3 wonderful children.... Just wish that he could have had the same life that I have, meaning I wish things would have worked out differently for him.
I know lots of friends who have been married and divorced at least 1 time if not more with kids. I have been with my husband for 12 years now and married for over 7 years. I sometimes wonder what it is about marrages these days that they dont last. I wonder sometimes if mine will..
I do know that if I ever get divorced I will never marry again. I have seen my parental units go threw marriages like they are nothing. I am not saying that others are wrong for getting married again its just not for me. I will end up the old lady who has 100's of cats and 3 kids that wont come to see me because they think i have become that crazy lady ;)...... Just sometimes wonder what life would be like not having someone to love or not having someone to love you..Think I have rambled on an on now.. So I will stop.. Forgive any run on sentences im sure there are plenty of them... lol Have a good night and take care
Mel